How do you miss someone you have never met? I never understood this. Sometimes at the oddest moments, I long to hold LynnMarie. Michael found some wonderful gotcha day videos the other night and it had me pondering. I love that word, ponder.
Want to know what I was thinking the other day? The fact that there are babies in orphanages in China. Orphanages. Babies sleeping in cribs. Babies who do not get held enough. Babies that lie their crying. Babies who have not experienced the kind of love I long to give. I don't have a picture of LynnMarie yet. There is a great chance that she is born and I pray for her specifically every day.
The day that Michael and I meet her will be like no other. It will not be perfect. She will probably squirm and cry and we will totally be stressed out but there is nothing more that I wait for.
This holiday season will be different. I hope this is our last one without LynnMarie.
It will be filled with hope. It will be full of wishes and dreams and anticipation.
April 2007 we were logged in and before we were logged in I anticipated getting a match December 2008. Boy, was my head in the clouds?
This Christmas will be full of prayers. I pray that she touches the heart of a special someone. Someone that will give her an extra hug......