At work tonight, 2 different staff members asked me questions which have had me thinking.
The first one was simply "Aren't you going to miss the newborn stage?" Mind you this is while the night shift nurses were taking turns loving on a new 3 day old squishy baby.
To be honest yes. Would I love the opportunity to love on a new baby like this and experience it, YES! Do I feel cheated? No! God is handpicking our daughter for us and whatever age she is, wherever she is and whatever way she is given to us is going to be perfect. I do not dout that at all. I had to firmly explain that I have no regrets and that this is an amazing journey we are on and I want to enjoy each day of our wait for LynnMarie!
The next was " When do you decide to just give up and try something else"? Hmm. I had no idea how to answer this. We are not giving up. Some people leave the China adoption program but I don't think they are giving up. Things change. We are not going anywhere. I asked her if she asked families who were trying to get pregnant how much longer they were going to keep trying. I was not ugly, I just let her know how I took her comment. She is my friend and she was very cool about it.
At our charge nurse meeting, I learned that one of the respiratory therapists that works nice is adopting from China and just got her referral. She will be leaving soon to get her baby. I cant wait to to find and meet her this week!
I'm in a much better mood. I just needed to get back in the swing of things, that's all!