Saturday, August 09, 2008

another post

So, I really did not want to blog about the Olympics because a) everyone is blogging about them and 2) I am just now watching the opening ceremonies.

I hope my friends and family watched the Olympics and I may possibly buy the dvd of the ceremonies. You, my friend and families are going to have a huge impact on LynnMarie and I hope you take the time to learn a little bit more of where she is from.

This ceremony has gotten me thinking but what doesn't? Our adoption wait has helped me reflect on my past, our present and our future with LynnMarie. We are adopting her from a country of great history. I am afraid. Not afraid of China. Afraid of not being able to do a good job about teaching her of her birth place. What if we fail? What if she does not grow up with a passion and knowledge of an amazing culture. I think this is why it is so important to learn what we can during the wait so that we can be as prepared as possible.

While watching tonight, I found myself in tears. Both happy and sad I guess. I was moved how wonderful the ceremony was, how much time was put into it, how much passion the performers had. The world is watching China right now. China has become much more personal since pursuing adoption. This is where my daughter is . Our daughter. How real is that? What will she be like? I am listening to stories of people overcoming things and pursuing their dreams? Will LynnMarie have her dreams come true? I see these Chinese women in traditional costume and I can not help but think of my daughter. I dream of her friends and even wonder what Shelby, Micah, Sheridan, Gianna, and all of my other little friends will be like when they get older! Will they be great friends! I so hope so and am so thankful for the First Friday community.

Friends inside and outside of the adoption community and family, LynnMarie will be home one day. I pray that you will help us teach her about who she is and love her and help her fulfill her dreams. I hope that you will learn a little bit of Chinese culture. Once we know when she is coming home, we will share some of the things we have learned.

I really missed her tonight!

9 comments:

Shelly and Family said...

Oh Amy...I wish I had some "magic words of advise" to give to you, but honestly I don't. The one thing I will say is that when you travel to China for your daughter, take EVERYTHING in...document everything, take photos of everything, and just live in the moment. You'll learn so much more in those two weeks you are there than you'll ever experience on TV or in a book....

Watching this Olympic openning ceremony had a whole different meaning to us. Our Annabelle is currently in Beijing and that's all I kept thinking about. It wasn't until Keith spoke what he was feeling out-loud and said, "That's where our daughter is!" and "We are coming soon to get ya baby!" that tears starting to flow...

Briana's Mom said...

I myself wonder if I will be able to teach Briana about her home country the way she deserves to know about it. I am going to do the very best I can. But I am nervous that it may not be enough. I think all IA parents feel the same way!

Seabolt said...

I have not watched the opening ceremonies just yet. I still have it on TiVo... I have been watching some of the games but I just have so many mixed emotions as well. I LOVE the Olympics but knowing they are taking place in our daughter's birthplace just tugs at my heart. I know that our wait will be a long one but I also know that our daugther is in China...

You guys will be in my prayers...

Kay Bratt said...

To read about your hearts aching to hold your children breaks my heart--but when you hold her in your arms, these memories of waiting and wondering will fade quickly.

Kay

Brian & Christy said...

Amy,
I wonder the same things. I fell like everything will be O.K. This is what we were meant to be. Mother's of chinese girls. Even though it seems like it will never happen its going to. I that one day soon we will be reading, showing or telling stories of ther culture and loving every minute of it. Thank you for posting such good comments on you blog. Comments from your heart. Your in my thought and prayers....
Christy

Kimo and Sabi said...

We learned about this blog at Valtool's blog. We gots a litttle baby sister (8 mo) who wuz adopted! AND our Mommakitty wuz adopted! They adopted our sister from da USA, but it still wuz quite a journey! Good lucks in yer adoption journey!

Jen & Bill said...

I worry about giving Ricky the history, the culture he so much deserves. I watched the Olympics and was sort of sad that Ricky will not know this country they way he would if he grew up there.
I have found a group called Emory's Dumplings that is a group of Chinese Emory Students that host a play group and mentor adopted Chinese children. We start in September. I hope this will help us with helping him understand his culture. This is just one step we are taking.

I cannot wait for you to meet your LynnMarie!

Steffie B. said...

the wait is so hard....but someday you will have her in your arms and all will be well! ;)

Have a great week!

Kiy said...

I so remember feeling what you are. I did watch the opening ceremonies with Emi, it was important to me even though she didn't have a clue. I still haven't been able to blog about that, it was so emotional.

I've been thinking of you lately, hoping you are doing okay. You are always so positive and upbeat but I know all too well how hard the wait is. I wish we lived closer, you truly are someone I'd love to meet and get to know.

/hugs, Kiy

P.S. I tagged you before I caught up on your blog. I'd love to read your list, but don't feel pressure to do this!