Friday, July 11, 2008

emotions

Its a little scary. Its been cool. Once Michael and I sent our MCC (Medical Conditions Checklist), I joined several yahoo groups Its been really neat to see people who turned in their dossiers the same time we did, get referrals and watch the beginning of an amazing journey.
At the same time, its make me start to realize that our wait really may not be as long as we thought at all. Then I started a to get a bit worried. A bit excited. My mind started racing but in a good way.
Once we get a referral, time will fly fast. Seriously,I have no idea what we are supposed to do. Truly. Really. This is when I wish my mom and sister lived closer (no attempt at making you feel guilty if Mom and Kelly are reading).

Packing for China, a trip to China, decorating her room, buying furniture, figuring out what kind of furniture to buy, making a decision about her room, looking for good deals (thank God for Kim and Donna), buying clothes, adjusting work schedules, redoing the budget, getting the house clean.Then I went a bit further and thought about savings accounts, and college tuition's and private vs public schools. Wow, its a really big deal! Our life will change. Oh I am looking forward to it but boy am I little bit afraid. No, wait, I am completely overwhelmed but would not change this excitement for anything. We really do not know how long until we get a referral. Its fun to think about, fun to dream about and fun to pray about.

God has brought us into this amazing journey. It is so indescribable! Can you believe all the things that have happened? Wow!

So now, I will take a deep breath, google some stuff , dream some more and read some amazing blogs. I have had the most amazing encouraging emails this week who have really lifted my spirits.

12 comments:

Dawn S. said...

Ack!! Girl you totally freaked me out just now!! Your list could be MINE!! ACK!!!!!!!

Briana's Mom said...

It seems overwhelming at times, but believe me, it all works out in the end. I felt the same way! Everything will get done. Promise!

April said...

welcome to parenting!! Take it one day, one decision at a time!! Use craig's list for toys and even some clothes. Have fun!!!

Mark, Rebecca and Sophia said...

I understand how you feel. Don't worry though, all your girl will need is LOVE. The rest will come...and go. Enjoy dreaming and planning. It is doable.

Kim said...

Go ahead and do some things NOW. If you wait for the referral, you are going to be overwhelmed. Get LynnMarie's room done. That is one of the most time consuming things you will have to do. Remember, you have a large community of people that are willing to help in any way possible.

ThatGirl said...

Oh, honey just wait until you see what God will show you in China! Amazing love ;)

Congratulations!

Brian & Christy said...

Hi,
My name is Christy. Mom husband Brian and I have the same Logged in month. We are waiting for our daughter Maddie. I enjoy looking at your blog. I'm not really good with all the adoption lingo. Is the MCC-does that mean that you have switched to special needs. My husband and I are looking into the idea. Its a big decision. We have just finished our daughters room and I'm so excited. There are alot of things to think about on a daily basis. Especially when it has been just me and my husband for 12 years. Our whole routine, world is going to change. I look forward to hearing from you. Christy

Alyson & Ford said...

Keep dreaming! You will do fine.... keep good lists is my salvation!
Congratulations on your soon to be parenthood!

Alyson LID 01/27/06

Christie said...

Listen girl - it's amazing what you can accomplish and do when you need to. It will all, and I mean ALL, fall into place one day at a time. Trust me on this...

You will be a fabulous mother!!

A Mom- In-W8ing said...

Your post kinda' got me thinking ... maybe it could happen sooner than we expect!

Ready or not ... I can't wait!!!

Smiles! :o)
Nikki

Fliss and Mike Adventures said...

I was ALWAYS told that this whole adoption thing was going to be full of speedhumps and to think of it like that... I have been trying to do that... we were meant to have only waited 8 months since LID... well, 27 later we are still waiting but 'no regrets'... all good things come to those who wait... take care

Carol said...

can't wait to follow your journey of a lifetime..............